My path into Esotericism

Hello readers. I know, it’s been awhile. But, fret not, more posts will be coming soon. I appreciate each and everyone’s patience on waiting for these

Now as requested, I will briefly go over how I got started on this journey. Maybe my story will help you start on your path, or further motivate you to stay on yours. As long as you get something from this short autobiography that’s all that matters

History or His Story?

Medical Missionary attending a sick African
Medical Missionary attending a sick African

I would say it was around my Middle school to High school years where I had my initial revelations and breakthroughs. Perfect timing, considering I was more recluse, due to my Mother moving around a lot from her being in the military. So, as you can guess I didn’t have too many friends starting off

I would say being a loner was a double edged sword. On one hand, I learned how to be self sufficient, but on the other, I isolated myself so much so–that others would see me as a little weird or awkward

Not having too many friends, all I had was time to myself. Time to learn, grow, and evolve. And it all started in History class, specifically when it was time to talk about Slavery and the Slave Trade. The one thing I recall every time they talked about the whole ordeal, were the European missionaries coming into Africa and converting them to Christians

That stuck with me. The reason being is because that would mean the Africans didn’t believe in a Jesus, and they had their own belief system. A couple years passed and I found out about a documentary called Hidden Colors, by Tariq Nasheed. I learned not only about the hidden history of my ancestors, but some metaphysical principles they held as well

One of the teachers in that documentary, Phil Valentine, really caught my interest in that stage of my life. Turns out he’s been lecturing for years and has many videos of his work on YouTube; which of course I watched them all( mostly). Little did I know, that was just the beginning

The road to the Abyss

The Qabalah (Kabbalah) tree with the hidden Sefirot Da'at
The Qabalah (Kabbalah) tree with the hidden Sefirot Da’at(knowledge)

Listening to hours and hours of lectures broadened my perspective of everyday life. When you get on this solo path, you learn something that most people don’t know: The reality we live in, is just a dream(or the matrix, if you’re movie savvy)

This was a big realization to me, especially at such a young age. So much information I was digesting and there was no one I could truly talk to at that time. Going to school was somewhat tricky, I made plenty of friends, but of course I had to blend in. At least at that stage of my life

But I’d say around my junior year of High School is when I started to express my beliefs a bit more. And to my surprise, I didn’t lose any friends due to the difference in opinions. My family of course questioned me, but they still respected my journey to the best of their abilities

It was also around that time I experienced my first out of body experience( OBE). I recall the lecture I listened to right before it happened: Bobby Hemmit: Satan The Ultimate Darkside Power. This was also the first lecture I’ve ever seen by Bobby, thus making me take a dive into the “abyss”

Since this was my first lecture on the occult, I didn’t know what to expect. I still had the old religious concept of Satan, and I was of course hesitant. After listening and comprehending as best I could, this one statement is what triggered this energetic shift that caused my astral projection: “You are Satan”

The Never Ending Journey of Enlightenment

By Ad Meskens - Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0,
By Ad Meskens – Own work

Horakhty- “Horus on the Horizons”

A few years have passed, since that time and now, obviously, and its a never ending process of self discovery and enlightenment. Like the teacher Bobby Hemmit once said, “If you don’t contradict yourself, you aren’t growing”

Over the years, I’ve learned to stand strong in my own knowledge not caring what people I offend. It may simply mean they aren’t ready for the message in this lifetime, so I leave them be

The image above is of the Great Sphinx in Egypt called Horakhty- Horus on the Horizons. Which symbolizes Horus being the master of both the spiritual and physical planes. I would say this is the goal while being on the physical plane, but it is not the end all be all. The real goal is to break out of the matrix and cycle of reincarnation, and go back to the real world

However, that’s a topic for another time. I must thank all of you for wanting to know a bit about my journey and life. Before we part ways, I’m going to link one of the first books I’ve read, The Historical Origins of Christianity by Walter Williams. It helped me in reprogramming my mind, maybe it’ll help you too?

Thank you for reading!


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